leaving

I was hoping to leave once the kids were out of school for the summer...
I have decided against that.. and instead I'm going to leave without them.
And much sooner. I am going to spend the rest of the week writing them each a letter.
Maybe two or three. There is so much I want them to know and hear before I go. So much I want them to remember. .

 There is so much I want my words to do for them. Heal. Guide. Be a reminder of all the love we had for one another.  To apologize for deceiving them. For not setting an honest happy marriage for them to model in their own lives.

But for today and the next few days.. I'm just going to give all of my love an attention to them.. and hope that's enough.