Running away

What if... you could run away....... would you?
 Ignoring obvious obstacles such as children, work and the alike.

I think about running away from my life on a daily basis. If it were not for having children I would surely be gone by now. I would love nothing more than to disappear into the crowd and never return.  My children keep me grounded. Keep me here. I wonder if one day they won't be enough to keep me from leaving.  The feeling just becomes so overwhelming sometimes.
This week I have been physically ill from stress and heartache.
I find myself talking to myself throughout the day.. trying to convince myself that I am still on the right path. My children interrupt my crying sessions with their simple hearts full of questions.  I do my best to still my sorrow until they are off playing once more but it is hard on my already fragile body. I eat very little.  And even the slightest bit of worry makes me dry heave.
With all of that though.. I stay around.
But if I did not have little ones around would I?
I feel pretty sure that I would be long gone living under some pseudonym.
Am I crazy?  Probably.
Do I want to continue on this lonely sad road. . No.
But I have no other options right now.